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2006-10-30T18:52:00.000+08:00

i m nt happy...
my darling also nt happy...
he nt happy....
i nt happy...
he had been feeling depressed for a few weeks liao..but i reali cannt help him much...instead..??i made him angry always.... & making him unhappy...i had been throwing temper...giving him attitudes....hmm..what kind of gf m i? a beri lousy,bad & attitude gf...i sucks...

haiz...no one to talk to....everyone gt their own problems i suppose....

2006-09-19T10:47:00.000+08:00

when u say u miss someone....
what makes u miss tat someone?
will u miss someone when u r busy?
or u miss someone when u r free?
what is the feeling of missing someone?
what makes u misses tat someone?
can u miss ur enemies?
what will u do when u misses someone?
drop a sms to say "i misses u"?
or tell yourself...:oh!i misses tat someone?
is it tat when u r in luv then u misses tat someone?
can friendship leads to missing?
when u misses ur past means u still living in the past?

2006-09-09T10:58:00.000+08:00

i guess life wouldnt be so sweet and wondeful after marriage....
bf had a best friend from sec sch...K
Recently...he jus gt ROM wif his wife,E
Had been reading E blog...i really pity her....
i guessed she had been zzz alone for 3 days to 1 week after having a quarrel wif K....
In her blog,she wrote this...

"hai.... he came home pack things n go........ wondering where he go........ never look @ him..... doubt he look @ me too...... dunno when will it endsâ€¦â€¦ I really dun dare to face the realityâ€¦.. I dun wan to tok anymoreâ€¦.. I shall be mute to everythingâ€¦â€¦â€¦ I really cant sleepâ€¦â€¦â€¦ have to control my tears during daytimeâ€¦â€¦. Have to cry alone @ nightâ€¦â€¦â€¦. Please stop hurting & torturing my mentalityâ€¦â€¦â€¦..
Depressness + Sadness = Depression"

So Poor thing..they had been together for many many yrs liao lor...y this thing happened....?
is it that we youngster tends to be harsh?we like to do what we like w/o much thinkings...and plannings?

Fear of marriage...fear of listening of pple breaking up...

*God...please bless that couple...everlasting Love in them...dun separate them...*

2006-09-09T09:47:00.000+08:00

it's another saturdae....everyone is gg for a holidae...
yesterdae one of my best friend i knew outside....Steve left for Thai Yesterdae....
My cousin..James is leaving for Taiwan wif his ex & a group of friends....
Another siao char bor out there ...suddenly out of nothing...decided to leave for Bangkok on next week...for a 5 days 4 night trip.....*oOOOoPpsss*
mi?LoLx...also gg for my honeymoon soon...end of this yr....
somehow..it was a surprise...
About a few months ago(june like tat ba)...i kept on begging my man to let mi go for holidae wif Steve this month...he refused...we nearly got into a small small quarrel...hmmmpps...tat moment...i angry..i even blaming him for being selfish.....
It realli means nothing what..jus go for a trip wif a normal only ma.....
ended up?Aug....out of nothing....one day...he suddenly....say that we shall be gg for trip...i tot he jus say say only la....ah ya..he is SUPER busy one lor...bring mi for a tRIP?jUS tRYING to fool mi...who knows?the next dae...he bought mi to the travel agency...
This is the one time...i think i m gg for a trip wif my bf...
at first...i m reali nt excited......but instead he is beri beri...started to plan and think what to bring...where to go...etc...
but now..?i m kind of excited liao...hehe...
jus nice...he gt a new job....
will started work next week...and we shall go for holidae..then after tat he is gg to choing for his future liao..
i guess we wouldnt be meeting so much liao...but jus hope everything will be alrite...

2006-09-06T10:35:00.000+08:00

i m reali lazy to update...
lol...
anyway...happy belated birthdae to Ms kAYpo(05-09)
hAppY Related birthday or can say earlated birthdae to Ms Melanie....(07-09)

HappY....
Thanks god for blessing my dear...hehe...
He is NO LONGER a Sales.....
todae meeting the two birthdae babies for dinner...
Ms Kaypo Ng Ah Lian Wants Clubbing...but poor mi & mel needs to work tomolow le..too bad..regardless...how desperate we wants to dance...also cannt go...
hehe...but nvm....
we still gt dunno how many dozens of yrs to go clubbing...?maybe 5 dozens yrs and above?LoLz..
i m mad....i m crazy.....

2006-08-28T18:57:00.000+08:00

my attitude problems are getting worst....
haiz...thanks God for giving such a nice bf...each time...he is giving in to mi...i knew that i m reali too much...but i jus dunno y i m like tat...i knew that he muz be feeling beri bad...in his heart...i m always bullying him...
i guess i reali need to see a doc soon....maybe bcos i m too stressed out or could be my hormnes unbalanced...
i m torturing everyone around mi...they gt to take my attitudes...and nonsenses...rubbish...etc....
Each time....bf is reali beri nice to mi...he cheer mi up...he gif in to mi...he knew that he is nt in the wrong...but he still say sorry...
maybe i should reali fall down hard enough then i will learn..??!!??
i had been seeing and listening to a lot of others' r/s....problems due to attitudes and short tempered....but i still refused to change myself...

Dun wish to lose such a nice bf...but still refused to change myself...i m reali a STUBBORN girl!!!!

how?I Muz change!!i muz change!!!i reali MUST change...

2006-08-22T18:24:00.000+08:00

todae nv go to work again....jus nice dear is off...
i had been having diarrhoea since sundae...
on sundae...reached a call @ 3+pm like tat when i m on my way bk after helping my mummy....at her stall.....Kelvin SEAH called.....he dated mi... no la.. is us out for a movie...so mi him my bf..jody & ling went to watch the "Tokyo Drift.." @ The Cathay....
it had been a long times...since meet up....
B4 the show...mi & dear shared the taiwan oyster mee & XXL chicken & the crepe for dinner....so do the other couple & kelvin ate the mee only...then we headed for the show...guess what?after the showkelvin suggested that we should try out the dessert @ Temple street..but when we were there..it was already closed..then we went to had our supper @ the stalls @ the street....
who knows?i had been gg to toilet for more than six times yesterdae & dear also had diarrhoea....but only 3times i tink...i was so happy that the pain and diarrhoea stopped at 4+pm ...who knows?it cames again todae....
went for sun tanning...after taking the medicine after seeing a doc....
it was a nice day.....i luv sun.....
i plan to arrange a gathering soon @ sentosa....for sun tan..but i guess more of us r busy....but i would try my best...maybe tis cuming sundae?lolx...
hehe...i should start to plan liao now....

2006-08-09T23:47:00.000+08:00

this is no longer a blog that i can write anything including my feelings cos.....??!!!

hmm...actuali i had a lot a lot of things to say...and write as it had been a long long time since i update my blog....

i miss SGERS....

mISS all the outings...

well well...i guess..cos everyone is busy including mi....

Jus transfer to HQ...beri beri stressed and busy,,plus....

everyone is busy working....la....schooling....la....dating...la....

I guess we sgers will be meeting soon...c

cos Jody birthdae cuming soon....we are gg to meet up again....SGT gathering...lolz..

gg to find a secret blog soon...cos..someone haf the URL to this blog...

:X

2006-06-27T11:57:00.000+08:00

FEAR
what is fear?
fear in luv is?.....the more u luv the person the luv u fear to lose him/her....?the more u fear to lose him/her...the more possessive u r?

fear is work is?...the more u fear to lose ur job...the more u try to gossip about ur colleagues?complained about them to ur superior?the more u fear tat ur colleagues will find out tat u talk behind their back..the more you pretended to treat them nice?

fear in life is?...the more u fear tat u will die...the more u will be careful is doing everything?the more careful u r...the more dangers u r in?

2006-06-14T16:02:00.000+08:00

it had been quite a long time since i updated my blog le...
Had been cuming to work...gg back home....
i m tired of tis kind of life...

last Sat..after werk,i sent my cousin,James to Tekong...it was my beri FIRST time to Tekong...kind of sad....the same kind of feeling when i sent someone close to mi to Serve the Nation....
Sundae:same la..went to help my mummy..then headed home at 4+ went to my ah ma place...then meet him again...we went to Factory Outlet again...(jus go on the previous day)...then we headed for home again...
Yesterdae attended his friend ROM...first time go to attend a friend ROM....kIND of envy them...so young...the girl is 23..the guy is 24...so sweet...their relationship is so good...

Finalli had decided not to change job again...cos mummy will nag non stop again....ah ma & aunts want mi to stay...I HATE WORKING IN MY STORE....so aunt wanted to transfer mi to HQ...BUT kind of tiring of working in tis kind of environment again....haixz...

I hate my life....
envy the WHOLE world Except myself....

2006-05-26T11:23:00.000+08:00

I m JealOus!!!!!I m jealous!!!I M jEALOUS!!!i M jealous....

2006-05-20T10:10:00.000+08:00

Yesterdae was the first time.....mi & "him" went shopping together....cos we usually went to get those stuffs we want & left the place.....
we went to Marina Square,Suntec & Citylink....
He is the one who suppose to spend more...cos he is the one who wants to go shop shop...ended up?i m the only one who had been buying clothes,shorts,shoes etc...& he jus simply carry all the bags for mi...& he nv get anything....LoLx....
Went to go into "Y pay more" in suntec....we wanted to get a short....and at first i saw this puma sneaker....it is in little brown...but no more....so i went around....and he saw a Nike sneaker on the floor...but we cannot find the shoes..so we get help from this beri nice malay girl....we managed to find the sneaker.....& i saw another diesel sneakers next to the rows of nike sneakers..when i tried it on...i can fix in...Hengz ah...i gt a pair of GIANT lEG...
So i decided to buy that pair....while i was paying....he went to look around...he found a corner...while they had sale on kids shoes....he saw this little POLO shoes...so cute....the first thing,it cum into my mind is..i wan that shoes...so cute...but who can i gif it to?so cute....i wan it for myself...but i gt no kids?
After a long time of consideration,he suggested we took pictures of the shoes & we decided to leave the shop.....
then we process to Level 1....where MNG,Levis,Adidas...& Royal Shopping is...we went into Royal Sporting....there was even better more cute little shoes....A lot of nice brands of kids shoes...I feel like buying also...but....haiz...i tink tat pple will think tat i m siao...
sO We left the shop....& the time is 8+pm alreadi....we had enough of shopping....we decided to leave for home....so we went up to the 2nd level....where we will pass by "Y Pay more"...?He dragged mi in...when i insisted we shouldnt waste $$ to get the cute little shoes....ended up?he gt the shoes?He was crazy.....who knows what will happened in the future?well...what i tink is...maybe next time even if we might nt get marry..he can gif it to his kids...?
We took a lot pic of the shoes,,hehe....
And he pointed out something concidentally,he is wearing his purple Polo wif a Green PoLo LoGo & i m wearing my pink polo wif Green PoLo LoGO & THE cUTE is wif Green PoLo printing around the shoes......

2006-05-18T09:06:00.000+08:00

tat had been one week ever since i updated my blog....
Last Wed,I had celebrated my birthdae @ MOS wif my friends....
Ling & Ger bought mi a cake..but too bad...when i called to enquired..the manager dun allowed mi to bring the cake in...who knows..?when i m there..i saw a bouncer stopping a guy from bringing things in.....then later part in the nite....i saw pple bringing cake in.....OMG....i alreaDi stopped ling for bring a cake IN.....
Somehow i had enjoyed myself...a few friends tat i hadnt meet up with them for quite long....
Went to work the next day...even though,it is my birthdae....i bought my colleagues lunch..from STUFIT.....it is a chicken wif rice wrapped inside...& grilled potato...they bought me a cake....they sang mi birthdae song...and i reali had a lot of fun....
At nite,mummy had arranged a steamboat session for my familyt including my aunts & uncles....
Went to collect my cake from Ling's godma place...it is a beri nice cake...so delicious...yummy yummy....as usual...i cut the cake....gt a lot of fun....
another way to celebrate my birthdae wif my family.....in another happy way & enjoyable way...

Yesterdae....while i was working...if i m not wrong... i received a call from "him",he said to mi tat..his staff purchase from my batula sandal had failed....i was disappointed....i kind of pissed off...the first thing tat cum into my mind is...wah lau...like tat my 2nd pressie from "him" gonez liao lor...haiz.... i feels a bit sad too....i asked "him":y they can rejected ur staff purchase one?he answered mi:it is like tat..it is all up to the store manager one....

In my heart,i knew tat i reali feel beri sad...but i knew tat "he" did ever haf the heart to get mi something..it's ok la... so i told him..ooh..it's ok la...and i forgot this issue totally.....

In the evening,we are supposed to meet for movie yesterdae with my sis & cousin...the time is still early...so i got "him" to meet mi @ my place.....first...So when he reached my place...he went into the toilet to wash "his" feet first..this is the usual thing he will do when "he" reached home also lor....then when he washed his hands after tat..."he" called for mi...and asked mi to get something for him in his bag cos his hands is wet....then i went into my room & opened his bag...guess what i saw?THE BATULA Sandal....I was a bit shocked..and kind of a little bit of surprise....I looked at "him".... kind of happy also....I nv tot tat "he" would surprise mi tis way....

Well well...Pple always say tat dun get shoes/sandals/slippers for your loved one...cos it means they will leave for you for another one.....but we do believed also...so as usual,i gif him 2 bucks lor...as a xiao yi si...LoLX.....

thanks God tat i found him....

& that sandal is actuali for our 1st mth anniversary....

God...please bless this relationship will nv end & forever still so loving & lastly forever HINEYMOON pERIod...!

LoLX

2006-05-10T09:12:00.000+08:00

one more day to 22..
excited?no...
tonite MOS?hoPE tat i can enjoy myself....

2006-05-04T11:26:00.000+08:00

counting down to my birthdae....another 6 more days...
LoLx...
it seems to be another normal day to mi....
But comparing to last yr(21st)...this yr might be slightly a bit happy cos i had someone to celebrate wif....
If i m nt wrong...ever since the first yr i celebrated my birthdae....i had been attached except last yr...
anyway, i will be celebrating on 10 May @ MOS....
i m nt chiongster....!!
Anyway,i dun expect a lot of my friends turning up cos it is a working day the next day...so i m nt taking any leave on the next dae which is my exact birthdaE...As usual,go work on tat day lor....

went Zouk last nite...this is the first time i enjoyed mambo nite...maybe bcos of the crowd there & it had been ages since we,4 gers went clubbing together le...
kai xin kai xin!!!partly...maybe bcos my dear is there also...
hehe...

Oh...kind of happy also...gt quite a few public holidae this month....

Still waiting for more to cum...

2006-04-26T10:33:00.000+08:00

harlow...everyone...so long nv update my bloggie liao....
now at dear place...hmm...todae take leave to acc him...maybe it might be a bit of stupid....but nvm la...
People always say....ah ya....honeymoon period...usually everything is SWEET & Wonderful wan la...i hope they r wrong....
so happy tat i haf found a nice & caring & considerate & mature & humourous....dear.... (oops!i m too....)LoLx....
i shall stopped praising my dear le...
haiz....i need a holidae....i m lazy to work......

2006-04-20T09:44:00.000+08:00

it is a happy starting for my life again...
Thanks God tat i had found him....
I finally believed tat Good things worth waiting.....
Everything started from a normal friendship....
Hope tat once it started & NV END!!!
:p

2006-04-17T10:22:00.000+08:00

Recently...had been listening to this song almost 100times everydae...
Sang By Janice-Goodbye...
I had nv believed it...making the first step for everything u wants to do....but i din make a first step in r/s anymore...

i had not been meeting Ling & Ying
except for meeting Kaypo last Wed & Thur cos some window shopping and she is supposed to pass mi the invitation for her cousin's wedding.....

Feeling quite down for last few days.....
I m reali very afraid of falling in luv again & again....i had reali saw a lot of unhappy ending already....
I m reali scared now...even though,i had reali fell in luv with a guy...i tink i will jus keep quiet and keep feelings towards him....
It is aLways r/s problems tat makes mi blogging....this is a place where i can say what i think and feel....

this week...no matter what...i wants to meet Ling & Ying...regardless how busy everyone is...i believed tat there is sure... some little time they can spare for mi..i can at least meet them for a short chat ....supper....dinner...?lolx...

2006-03-31T09:36:00.000+08:00

So many days nv updated my blog le...
a lot of things for mi to say here...cos nv reali update a lot..
last fri:went to Newsasia Bar with zheng & his big group wif friends...it is quite a nice place to be...i likes the music...
last sat:Went MoMo with Ling & Ying they all...cos it is Bazid Birthdae....wah..it had been quite a long time since i went there.....
last sun:supposed to go to flea market cos eshane is selling her things there...but i din go cos i couldnt wake up on time & i had a bad headache....&went to meet ling & ying @ ling place...took a few pics with Lachlan...her friend's son..... & went to Siglap for ice-cream waffles.....then headed to my sis place to drop something for my bro-in-law...
lot of things had been happening this few weeks....
haiz...i hope tat everyone can cheer up....Things might not be as easy as what i say...but jus dun wish to see u guys like tat...

cheeeesssee!!!

2006-03-20T09:23:00.000+08:00

it's a mondae again...so tired....

i m reali so sorrie...for not meeting her for the past few weeks....it is MI who is always busy...maybe if i meet her...she wont be so sad...and started to keep everything to herself...she was one of my best friends...
only after reading her blog then i knew tat she is beri sad...but everything was too late....when i started looking for her....she din answered my calls...i tot tat she is busy working...so i tried calling her for the last two days....who knows?yesterdae she had lost her loved grandfather....she was beri sad....i saw her smses...i cried....i reli regretted....if i had reali at least meet her one day...she would haf someone to share her problems.....i knew tat there is a lot of things she hides them to herself....
hAIz...

2006-03-16T09:36:00.000+08:00

i dreamt of him again yesterdae nite....
it had been the third time this month...
Yesterdae night,i dreamt that he becum a drug peddler & addicted to drugs too....i was terribly sad....b4 i tried to stop him...he had been caught already...
LoLx...
i only can remember that much i supposed....but if i m not wrong....the "story" is beri long...
and i woke up by the dream.....
haiz...

again weekend cuming.....weeks by weeks passes by sooooOOo FaST!!!wow!!!

2006-03-09T10:45:00.000+08:00

so fast...this weekend cuming again....
dun know is it tat as we are getting older...time seems to pass faster.....

i m getting older...!!!

2006-03-02T11:05:00.000+08:00

i m tired...i m tired of everything...
ever since i m young....i tend to be beri KAYPO in everything....
Especially when i knew tat my friend is in trouble or when they are help..i will try my best to do something to help them....
Now i had been regretting...sometimes....when i jus wanna help...but?guess what happened?i m involved in those nonsense troubles for nothing..
Especially in few weeks....everything started when i went Devils with Step...somemore during New Yr period lor...kana scolded on tat nite for nothing....NVM...
Troubled over my trip issue..NVM...cos i reali need a break...
During my last few days of my trip...almost kana stucked there cannot cum bk....
cum bk liao...out of nthing..kana involved and accused of things tat i nv do...
so pissed off....irritated...angry..and tired of being so stupid!!!

ALL STARTED WITH MY KPO!!!
wanted to tell my best friends...but i cannot...cos i promised not to say anything....

eh!!!ah!!!i need to be alone...!!!

2006-02-23T08:49:00.000+08:00

i m gg off later for a short getaway...
dun miss mi too much....
hope tat i can enjoy myself this time....
whenever i m not gg with my loved ones...but i m gg for a holidae with my best friend....
LoLx...

see ya..

2006-02-17T11:26:00.000+08:00

hmm....
feel like having a secret blog...a place to hide all my sadness...
it had been months ever since i left him....
i m still missing him.....
Even though,there is a lot of chances we can be together....but i still duno y i doesnt wan to....my brain will always gif the answer "NO" to him....and my heart cried.....

jUSt now...i called him...
cos my didi need something from him
when i heard his voice....i m reali so sad...a cold voice....
a very strange way of answering my question....
my heart hurts again....
a guy whom i used to be deeply in luv with....

i had tried... i had tried to get someone to replace him....regardless who i m wif...i will think of him at times......

but I BELIEVE tat one day...i will get him OUT my heart & replace a BETTER one instead!

2006-02-15T10:27:00.000+08:00

nv updated my blog for days...

Yesterdae was Valentine's day....

had everyone enjoyed themselves?

feeling moody recently....
best friend in trouble....
two managers are a fugger....
everything sucks....

wanted to get away....but my another colleague haben cum bk from holidae....but i reali need to go off....but manager also dun understand...

stress stress....

resignation letter type out Already!!!!!BUT haben submitted up yet cos...everyone asking mi to reconsider....and i haben got a job yet...
frankly speaking la..i dun mind jobless for THE time being than to see those idiots faces...
lolx...

anyway....think about it first la...cos my mummy will also nag at mi...

2006-02-08T09:57:00.000+08:00

Can anyone tell mi what is the responsiblities of a driver....??

Y do humans want to risk their passengers' life?
y are pple so selfish?
who the fug they think they r?

Will u still drive ur WIFE & CHILDREN when u r drunk?

Hate all the selfish idiots!!!!they are cruel,cold-blooded creature,brainless ass!!!!!

On sundae/Mondae newspaper, a 26 yr old Navy guy named Fredrick Lim...a guy who is always careful,kind,nice and considerate guy..killed in a Traffic accident....
his friend who was drunk...he knocked onto the tree @ Kallang....
he was my bro-in-law's sec sch friend....three days b4 the accident...he even went to my sis place too...a very cheerful and nice chap.....

if u are the driver....u caused ur friend death...but u?u are not injured.....will u regret for ur entire life?Even though,we cannot predict tat this sad thing would happen....but we can PREVENT right?

If the driver chose to leave his car at the parking lot....AND collect it the next day back or DUN DRIVE if u wan to drive la!!!!!Y mux u KILLED?Y?Yes...maybe Fred was also in the wrong...he can choose not to take tat driver transport....but....haiz...well...well...whatever i comment here or say here....i jus cannot changed the fact tat God had bring him to heaven & take good care of him!!!
Jus feel kind of sadness....
Since it can be prevented..then y do we dun take precautions instead of REGRETS now!!!!?

2006-02-03T10:46:00.000+08:00

how many of us had actuali sit down and think what we wants in life?

we sch?we work?we got married?we gif birth?then waiting to die...?

it is like a cycle.....

2006-01-31T18:42:00.000+08:00

now at his place...surfing net.....checking friendster....and update my blog.....
he le?cooking nice foods for mi....yes!he is COOKING!
nv in my life a guy will gif mi surprise....cook for mi...excluding maggic noodle-my bro la...

dunno it will turn out nice a not....

his aunts said that he does cook nice dishes!!!!

what had i being doing for the past few days?

1st day of new yr:went to my grandmother place then my grandma place then meet him to his friend place for gambling session then headed to hongkong cafe @ Heartland mall but i din ate anything cos in the morning....when i woke up?i feel dizzy and vomitted non-stop....including eating medicine & drinking plain water....

2nd dae of new yr:stay at home cos my grandmother side family cuming to my place.....then meet him to his aunt placw...who knows?all his family is THERE....everyone started to be beri EXCITED when they see mi!!!so pai sei!omg....then headed to ling place...and i had a Lo Hei Session.....then i headed home to park the car and changed... & headed to Boat Quay

to be continued...

yummy yummy....just finished my meal......
it is reali nice of him....lolx..

let mi continue talking about yesterdae,,,
then after boat quay.... we headed to MOS cos one of the ladies,Cat wanted to go there...who knows? when we r in the Q... One of the girls,ANgela wanted to go LOO...so mi and another guy,Raymond followed her to go with mi aso la...who knows?before that the other guy name:Dave already tell the bouncer tat we three gg to loo and coming bk ma...he say OK..but when we cum bk?he asked us to RE-Q,....ended up?we gif up...and went to a place called :The Balcony to chill there and i headed home at 3+am and reached home at 5pm....

i would like to say sorry to Ling & YIng for not acc u girls out yesterdae at Marine Bay...

2006-01-27T08:33:00.000+08:00

yes!yes!
todae work for one day then tomolow dun need to work till wed.....

had been lazy in updating my blog....

hmmm...this yr,it's a lonely new yr for mi...i suppose....

1st day of new yr-My grandmother place then grandma place.... after tat...own planning?but u think i had planning ma?

2nd day of new yr-i think either someone cum to my place then go to my aunt place if no planning...?

3rd day onwards? dunno.....

This yr,i had actually bought a lot of clothes...but i think reali got to start wearing them when i cum to work le....i myself also dunno y i buy so many.....

oh ya...i m suppose to do this:

1 Birthdate?
11-May
2 Place of birth?
Sinkapor
3 Blood type?
B+
4 Height?
165
5 Weight?…
pui pui
6 Shoe size?
9
7 Work? Study?
working lor...study?study can...NO exams can ma!
8 Childhood nickname?
Ah Hua...
9 Average hours you sleep in a day?
weekdays:6 hrs.... weekend:4 hours

10 Time you go to bed?
depends.... 11?12?1?2?3?4?
11 Any siblings
1 jie jie,1 mei mei,1 didi & bro-in-law counted ma?

12 Eyesight – short-sighted, long-sighted or perfect?
LoNg-sighted
13 What languages do you speak?
English, Mandarin and hokkien dialect

14 What languages would you like to speak?
Mandarin
15 Nickname on Messenger?
ebon
16 What do you collect?
money
17 Model of handphone you are using?
Nokia 6680
18 What is on your shopping list?
New Hp,Papillio shoe,a diamond ring & a pair of ear ring
Favourite t-shirt brand?
any brand
20 Favourite cut of jeans?
As long as i can fit in & it looks slim on mi!

21 Favourite fashion designer?
huh?i dunno....
22 Favourite clothing label?
huh?i dunno

23 Favourite shoe label?
C&K,VNC

24 Favourite bag label?
LV,Gucci
25 Most dominant colour in your wardrobe?
Black
26 Most worn-pair of shoes?
every shoes that is "light"

27 Favourite shampoo?
Presently is my perm hair shampoo
28 Favourite conditioner?
Presently is my permed hair conditioner

29 Favourite bath product?DUNNO HOW TO SPELL...

30 Favourite facial product?I nv use.....

31 Favourite cosmetics?Biothem etc...

to be continued

2006-01-19T22:57:00.000+08:00

suddenly...i heard Zheng Zhong Ji song:jUE kou Bu ti ai ni...
tears rolled down......
lot & lot of memories flashed thru'....
what m i doing last yr de todae le?
what makes the world beautiful?
i din blog on last yr-200105
but i did blog on 180105 (i dunno can see a not)
i write this:

there are reali a lot of f**king problems with my com in office....reali so stupid....everyday got to manually adjusted the time....then so slow........ah yo....my stoopid....cousin..James said bcos i had "too many things" in com....Nonsense....hehe...Daddy won himself a computer last Fri..on our company annual dinner.....mi le?100 cash...my sister...ooppps....hmm...a....a...a....kettle...hehehehehhehehe...my da jie....a printer...jus nice for new own computer at home.....At first thought of bring my old computer at home...but my colleague ask mi not to....so i decided to gif it to...my XB lor....Ling gg to US..ON this Fri...which i only noe yesterdae...Ying & Ger having term tests now....might be meeting them for coffee...supper or..what la...so long...nv...meet them liao.....I miss u pple.....My birthdae cuming....how...??dunno where to celebrate....or...how to celebrate...sian sian sian....

haha....

this yr de todae le?
ying having her attachment....

Ling..doing her FYP...

gER:mia?FYP?i dunno....she is busy...

2006-01-16T23:29:00.001+08:00

hi...i m lazy!!!!!

got a lot of things to say...but lazy to type it out....

lolx...

finally..... i had bring my hp to repair liao...

yesterdae went to Sebawang(lentor ave) there to haf my dinner...curry..with my whole family including my sis & bro-in-law....
so happy....it had been quite long....since we sat down & eat... together.....
I also saw the roti Prata chop tat everyone praising..i tink is called "the Prata Place" or the prata shop...located At Thong Soon therre......
After the dinner ...we went for shopping at Chong Bang.....i buy a new Quilt & a 3/4 pant.....

TodAE Was A "PiSSful" dae 4 mi....
early in the morning....lost my temper liao...and feeling stress out for the whole dae....Reali bluez lor....

Haiz....dunno when then i can leave tat stupid & irritating place....i hate there....
Jua wait & see... or else.... i m gg to quit....& find a new job or.... go back to sch... lolx...

i miss the relaxing day....in sch...
i miss my SGERS....
I MISS ALL THE FUN & Joy.....
i miss all the nonsenses we haf...

i miss......lots & lots..of misses.....

2006-01-12T11:00:00.000+08:00

it's a thursdae already...so lazy.....
everydae raining non-stop....

so so vexed.....

no mood to work....

2006-01-06T09:25:00.000+08:00

todae i only need to work till 12.30pm only...so happy?no...cos i need to be on the hotel by 3pm cos?i m gg to do my make-up and hair-styling there.....lolx...beri beri ai mei rite?
oops...i forgot to mention tat tonite..is mY COMPANY ANNUAL DINNER....
:p

haiz...
so sian....it seems good huh...but imagine.... u need to rush home...u cannot even rest more than 2 hours or...u cannot even take a short nap..then u must rush to the hotel liao...tonite...confirm not nice wan lor....lolx

tonite...le...after my dinner..my cousin & sister suggested gg to club...
luckily...tomolow..can report work late..
if tomolow...dun need to work...i will be more happy..

:D

no mood to work todae....
well...i at least got to do some stuffs right...
update bloggie again
tata

2006-01-02T22:53:00.001+08:00

jus cum bk from 12 hours of shopping....
went to colour my hair and perm my eye lashes....
todae....i only buy one pair of shoes two tops only....

let mi recap what i had done for the past few days....
yestedae woke up at 11+am to attend a lunch with my dad side pple cos it's my grandma birthdae.....then at nite went for a dinner at Grassroot Country club..cos it's my 5th aunt birthdae too....had a enjoyable and nice dinner...then headed for supper...@ Long Beach.....
New Year Eve went to a Ktv Pub@ SIM alumni..then headed to see Firework outside sentosa....then meet Ying they all awhile @ Arab Street then headed for my supper with Des & Cabbie.....then i reached home about 6am...

hmm...It's a new year....hope everyone would had a better year ahead....
for mi?i hope to earn more money....to be happy....etc...

I m almost prepare for Lunar New Year...only less a few things haben buy only....

time to pig soon...
good nite...

2006-01-02T22:53:00.000+08:00

2005-12-27T08:57:00.000+08:00

suddenly early in the morning....think about the testimontial & message in my friendster he kept for mi tat day....
this time,he din sms mi or call mi....it was quite a surprise to see his testi.....
For the past...he had nv ever leave any message to really apologize to mi like tat....
haiz...jus feel a bit sad...
lolx

Yesterdae went to PS...wif my mummy by NEline...this is her first time taking NE line....cos she always drive to town....
guess what?by the time.... we reached there my aunts already carried a lot of bags....they had been shopping since 1plus....and we finished shopping....till 10pm...and went to my grandma place till 12am...so tiring.....

it's a new day todae...
enjoy my day!

2005-12-26T15:50:00.000+08:00

Had a tiring and wonderful weekend...
Sat:Celebated Christmas @ my place....with my elder sister's friends,my friends & my cousin's friends.....and at 1plus....headed to Des place to c his puppy....
and went for supper with Bazid,wm,ying&jimson...Kelvin cum and joined us later....
Yesterdae went to MOS....with my friends.....
heard a lot of pple praising the place...but i feel so so only....not reali tat fun....actually....

both dae cum bk about @ 6 am....and woke up.... @ 1plus...omg...i need to zzz more....but i cannot.....

2005-12-23T09:25:00.000+08:00

i m Lazy!!!
I m Lazy!!!
i m lazy...to update my blogie.....!!!!
i had been going straight home after werkz...cos no where to go...noone to acc mi anymore...everyone is busy with their own..stuffs...
tomolow my place having a party!!!!
but i think not much of my friends will turn up..
cos noone replied to my sms....

MeRRy Christmas & a Happy New Year!!

2005-12-19T09:32:00.000+08:00

todae is 19th Dec..
i remembered tat 5 yrs ago todae...at 2pm...i went to my sec sch to get my N Level result....todae....my bro is gg to get the result.....
he would not haf the pressure that i haf...cos he dun intend to pass well...cos he wanted to go ITE....
oNE MORE things....if i m still wif him...todae marks our 5yrs anniversary...well..well...too bad...good things doesnt lasts....

Wah...time realli passes by so fast....
from a naive and rebellious ger to todae...21yr old girl who worked at a place she doesnt wan to be....doing things tat she hated the most....working wif pple who she dun liked.....hate to see those she hated.....

she will be back todae also...gg to see her only for this few days only...hengz ah!!she is a slut...hated hated her......
y muz pple lied to make the whole pple hated u..but the fact is ?she dun like u!!??
the most disappointed is.....the one tat tell u is ur closed one.....

2005-12-14T15:42:00.000+08:00

a big relief now....
hmm..i doesnt wan to waste his time anymore....
a lot a lot of advices already given liao...
i m still so so stubborn....haiz...

2005-12-12T12:05:00.000+08:00

my dinner cuming....but haben find suitable... dress.. even i can found...haiz....
either i feel to casual...or too classy for mi...lolx....
but i bought a skirt for new yr liao...and gg to get a dress for new yr too...lolz.....

2005-12-09T12:20:00.000+08:00

let welcum THE BLUR QUEEN OF Singapore....Who's it?it's mi...
this is how the story started...

Yesterdae...i m supposed to go for my facial @7.30pm...so i fetched mummy home after she bought some stuffs for my ah ma...at the same time, i m supposed to redraw cash for my facial..mummy stopped mi...(cos no parking lots la) & then headed to Boon Keng....B4 mummy go down the car...she passed mi 200bucks....for petrol...and my facial...
Guess what?after pumping petrol....i left 150 bucks..cos the petrol dunno y...FULL TANK-$50.45only.....
who knows when i left the petrol kiosk...i found that i lost my 150bucks....omg...i cannot find...how?i again lor..panic liao lor....i stopped my car @ Serangoon Mrt there..i finf here find there...cannot find le...how?$150 le....?not 15 bucks?not $1.50 le...
what to do?i went back to the petrol kiosk & ask the pple there....i searched the car again...the cashier?the petrol....ended up?guess what?i found the $$$ in the cardholder...cos...i forgot tat
i did bring the petrol card to pay for the petrol.....and i left the cash inside the holder le...
WHY?WHY I M ALWAYS SO BLUR?always so kan jiong over small things?always so stupid?

1)crazy enough to believe what others say?NVM!learn my lesson..
2)Naive enough to get sad over those minor issues....GROW UP LE!!
3)cONfUSED and Puzzled Over....stupid issue....

Sianz....sianzz...HAIz!!!

2005-12-04T22:38:00.000+08:00

todae went for my yoga @ true yoga....so so so long nv go le...i reali totally forgot about exercising......i m reali gaining weight back.....
I went for 3 classes in 1 shot and continually...
1st-Fuzion dance
2nd-Combat Yoga-my fav.
3rd-Belly dance.....

Next week, i wan to go again....cos i had been paying for the member fee monthly...dun wan to pay 90+ monthly for nothing....

My annual dinner cuming....
New year cuming....
i must shed more more....muz at least slim down another 5 kg at least....

hmm...

did u ever ask urself....what u reali wan in life?or can say what u reali expect after living in this world for years?

dunno y todae...suddenly,when i was doing my combat yoga..i think of him....i misses him...
he is the guy who makes mi reali understand...
luv can made one change...
can made one to gif up everything jus to be with him....

well well... past is past!!!!
hope to haf a nice weekday ahead!

2005-11-29T08:48:00.000+08:00

Second day of the week....
mummy & daddy went to enjoy themselves...i and my bro...suffering..
everydae i gt to wake up super early..to fetch him to go to my mum stall...
i had been reaching work at 8am...so early lor....
including sundae i also muz wake up early lor....jus to fetch my bro to the stall....

called mummy yesterdae...but cannot got her...but managed to find my aunt...she said she is enjoying herself......she even said...my mummy is having her "spring bath"...is it the word to describe "wen chuan"?lolz... dunno la...
She also told mi they are at the top of a dunno what mountain lor...super le....

Yesterdae evening then heard so sad news from my sis....this news will make most of them who went to Korea with my parents sad....my grandma was afraid to break the news to them especially my aunt....she wants them to enjoy themselves....
but it is reali so sad.....
haiz...how long can a human live up to?what u reali wan by living in this world?

2005-11-25T13:19:00.000+08:00

I actuali found this email from my friend...meaningful..

TRUST is a very important factor for all relationships. When trust is broken, it is the end of the relationship. Lack of trust leads to suspicion, suspicion generates anger, anger causes enmity and enmity may result in separation. A telephone operator told me that one day she received a phone call. She answered, "Public Utilities Board." There was silence. She repeated, "PUB." There was still no answer. When she was going to cut off the line, she Heard a lady's voice, "Oh, so this is PUB. Sorry, I got the number from my Husband's pocket but I do not know whose number it is." Without mutual trust, just imagine what will happen to the couple if the telephone operator answered with just "hello" instead of "PUB".
NO POINTING FINGERS A man asked his father-in-law, "Many people praised you for a successful marriage. Could you please share with me our secret?" The father-in-law answered in a smile, "Never criticise your wife for her shortcomings or when she does something wrong. Always bear in mind that because of her shortcomings and weaknesses, she could not find a better husband than You." We all look forward to being loved and respected. Many people are afraid of losing face. Generally, when a person makes a mistake, he would look around to find a scapegoat to point the finger at. This is the start of a war. We should always remember that when we point one finger at a person, the other four fingers are pointing at ourselves. If we forgive the others, others will ignore our mistake too.
CREATING PERFECT RELATIONSHIPS? A person visited the government matchmaker for marriage, SDU, and requested "I am looking for a spouse. Please help me to find a suitable one." The SDU officer said, "Your requirements, please." "Oh, good looking, polite, humorous , sporty, knowledgeable, good in singing and dancing. Willing to accompany me the whole day at home during my leisure hour, if I don't go out. Telling me interesting stories when I need companion for conversation and be silent when I want to rest." The officer listened carefully and replied, "I understand you need television." There is a saying that a perfect match can only be found between a blind wife and a deaf husband ,because the blind wife cannot see the faults of the husband and the deaf husband cannot hear the nagging of the wife. Many couples are blind and deaf at the courting stage and dream of perpetual perfect relationship. Unfortunately, when the excitement of love wears off, they wake up and discover that marriage is not a bed of roses. The nightmare begins.
NO OVERPOWERING Many relationships fail because one party tries to overpower another, or demands too much. People in love tend to think that love will conquer all and their spouses will change the bad habits after marriage. Actually, this is not the case. There is a Chinese saying which carries the meaning that "It is easier to reshape a mountain or a river than a person's character." It is not easy to change. Thus, having high expectation on changing the spouse character will cause disappointment and unpleasantness. It would be less painful to change ourselves and lower our expectations..
RIGHT SPEECH There is a Chinese saying which carries the meaning that "A speech will either prosper or ruin a nation." Many relationships break off because of wrong speech. When a couple is too close with each other, we always forget mutual respect and courtesy. We may say anything without considering if it would hurt the other party. A friend and her millionaire husband visited their construction site. A worker who wore a helmet saw her and shouted,"Hi, Emily! Remember me? We used to date in the secondary school." On the way home, her millionaire husband teased her, "Luckily you married me. Otherwise you will be the wife of a construction worker." She answered ,"You should appreciate that you married me. Otherwise, he will be the millionaire and not you." Frequently exchanging these remarks plants the seed for a bad relationship. It's like a broken egg - cannot be reversed.?
PERSONAL PERCEPTION Different people have different perception. One man's meat could be another man's poison. A couple bought a donkey from the market. On the way home,a boy commented, "Very stupid. Why neither of them ride on the donkey?"Upon hearing that, the husband let the wife ride on the donkey. He walked besides them. Later, an old man saw it and commented, "The husband is the head of family. How can the wife ride on the donkey while the husband is on foot?" Hearing this, the wife quickly got down and let the husband ride on the donkey. Further on the way home, they met an old Lady. She commented, "How can the man ride on the donkey but let the wife walk. He is no gentleman." The husband thus quickly asked the wife to join him on the donkey. Then, they met a young man. He commented, "Poor donkey, how can you hold up the weight of two persons. They are cruel to you." Hearing that, the husband and wife immediately climbed down from the donkey and carried it on their shoulders. It seems to be the only choice left. Later, on a narrow bridge, the donkey was frightened and struggled. They lost their balance and fell into the river. You can never have everyone praise you, nor will everyone condemn you. Never in the past, not at present, and never will be in the future. Thus, do not be too bothered by others words if our conscience is clear..
BE PATIENT This is a true story which happened in the States. A man came out of his home to admire his new truck. To his puzzlement, his three-year-old son was happily hammering dents into the shiny paint of the truck. The man ran to his son, knocked him away, hammered the little boy's hands into pulp as punishment. When the father calmed down, he rushed his son to the hospital. Although the doctor tried desperately to save the crushed bones, he finally had to amputate the fingers from both the boy's hands. When the boy woke up from the surgery & saw his bandaged stubs, he innocently said, " Daddy,I'm sorry about your truck." Then he asked, "but when are my fingers going to grow back?" The father went home & committed suicide.Think about this story the next time someone steps on your feet or u wish to take revenge. Think first before u lose your patience with someone u love. Trucks can be repaired.. Broken bones & hurt feelings often can't. Too often we fail to recognise the difference between the person and the performance. We forget that forgiveness is greater than revenge.People make mistakes. We are allowed to make mistakes. But the actions we take while in a rage will haunt us forever.

2005-11-24T11:01:00.000+08:00

a lot of things to actuali mentioned here....
a lot a lot a lot...
happi...sad ones....

haiz...
a problematic gal....

some pics:

what m i doing?
way up to genting....so bo liao lazz...

mAD ovEr ShoPpinG...
BUT it is the first day there only...

the disco is Genting
my bro called it "Devils bar" of genting...
LoLx

The PuB THere..beri beri beautiful & class there

i luv it a lot

2005-11-22T10:44:00.000+08:00

Came back from my genting trip on sundae evening....luckily...there is no jam....!
And rushed for my cousin birthdae celebration @ my grandma place...

Talking about my trip....
Went to its pub and club...on Sat nite...
Its club...quite happening...but not tat crowded...my cousin...described it as "devils bar" in Genting...its live band was powerful....
its pub was so nice...its lights....
hmm...when the pic is uploaded..i will upload some here...

same old mi la...shopping till siao...my best hobby is to....buy?guess what?make a guess.....
>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>
i bought 4 pairs of...SHOES...!!!!
lOlX...MY BEST HOBBY!!!

brOke le!!!spent all my $$ in Genting....
but..still got a few birthdae presents to get?how?
mi..i,myself..oso dunno..!!!

2005-11-17T09:30:00.000+08:00

one more day to genting...
happy...happy...
my whole body aching...
went for my friend birthdae ...
@ktv....omg...all her malaysian colleagues like having their own concerts...singing all cantonese songs...like "zhen ni"/"luo wen "...etc..a lot a lot of hk old singers songs.....
I sat in the ktv for the whole nite..w/o singing any songs....
jus sat there watched them having their concert lor....
it might been slightly boring...but at least i did attended her celebration...
lolx.....

tonite got to meet sgers....with yong han...i think...but i m reali tiring...
It is always when u work,u feel sleepy...tired....
but after work...u feel refreshed,full of energy....

Time to get bk to work....
cya cya

2005-11-16T10:52:00.000+08:00

TwO more day to go to Fridae....
Happy..happie....!
i will be leaving for a short trip to Genting to relax myself...
Actuali there is nothing there la...only shopping,casino,theme park..etc...
nothing much..at least better than staying in Singapore...
a short break....4 myself...

Tonite i will be attending a friend birthdae celebration at Ktv...

Tomolow...nite meeting them for a short chat...heard tat Yong Han is back...i think the last time i saw him was CHInese new yEar b4 he leaving for Australia....for future studies....
we even took pics with him...

and fri morning leaving for Genting with my da jie-sis,Mark-bro-in-law,my didi-AH kai,AH nI-COUSIN,Ah LianG-COUSin,ah liang and my bro's friends?dunno who...or how they go up la...but this time..my "him" cannot go..cos the car cannot fit him in....
and he is sick...
went to see him yesterdae...the weak,pale...and sick him...looks like a "jelly" in his bed.......

~god!please look after him for mi,when i m not in Singapore! ~

Hi..

2005-11-13T02:22:00.000+08:00

I just cum back with my siblings and bro-in-law from JB...A LAST MIN..dEcision.... i m supposed to meet my "him" earlier....but at last,now then i meet him...
I buy 2 VCDs & 3 packs of cigerette for him....

haiz...even noe my bro-in-law dun reali noe the way there..but we reali try to find the way to JB nice food....i din reali waste a lot of time to look for place to eat...cos there is lot of foods there...a lot of shophouses are still open......and a lot of pple on the road....

When we went in at 9+pm....the custom q was actuali long...luckily,we dun had to reali waited quite long....

We ate at A place that i had nv been b4...it is actuali near a place of 3 petrol kiosk... somethign like "Da Pai Tang"....the food there is reali quite nice.....

Even those it is quite a beri short journey...but i reaLi ENJOyed....i hadnt nv been to JB with my siblings...my first time.....LolX...

tIMe to watch my VCD lIAO...

gOOd NiTEz..

2005-11-09T16:43:00.000+08:00

Actualli got a lot of things to say to u all...
but not now...cos a lot of things happened..it makes mi feels that y should i be so nice to pple who tends to think that i m a bad person?

so many misunderstandings happened...all bcos of my childishness...being too friendly?WRONG!!!
being too nice?WRONG!!!
keep everything to mysel?WRONG!!!
everything also WRONG!!!
wHEN the first day...i entered my childhood...is a mistake!!!
I think it included u..for being my friend...IS A WRON WRONG Things!!

2005-11-06T22:24:00.000+08:00

had a wonderful weekend...
Yesterdae was the first time i went to JB in MIdnite & 1st time with my sec friends....i reali enjoyed myself...
I went with my beebee....Sebastian....Ling,Ying,WM,jODY,jac,Cabbie,DEsmond...
we went in at almost 12am..jus for seafood....& there was after our friend,evelyn bb at Pasir Ris.....We tot of gg for a mid nite shopping at its shopping centre...but it was closed due to Hari Raya....i think...then the guys are reali like mad idiots.....smoking non-stop....and they as usual la...buy cigerette from there la...especially...tat Desmond..jus bcos of the cheap cigerette....he smoked non-stop.....
We headed back to Singapore about 2+am..i think...we went for a short talking session at the nearby my home roti prata shop...This is the enjoying part....Desmond and Jac created a topic...we was laughing till our jaws pain....and my bee nearly spilled the tea in his mouth onto Ling....
LolX...anyway... hope to had more fun again....

2005-11-03T20:48:00.000+08:00

supposed to update my blog...on thursdae..but i din....
Sick for a few days....
it is a Saturdae...
enough of shopping on thur.....already....
Later gg to Causeway to help ling to buy her facial wash.....
then gg to town to get my makeover pics...hope it will be nice....
tonite,it's Meiyan birthdae....at Downtown East...

*still feeling blur blur now...*

2005-10-31T09:53:00.000+08:00

Spent my Saturdae afternoon @ my friend,Eileen place...it was her boy's 1st Birthdae....
my another friend,Jeslyn wan mi to wait for her...after her class who noe?she cum only at 7plus...but i reached eileen's plaCE at 1.30pm...imagine...everyone started to leave 2-4 plus..but only left mi and my "him" waiting for her there....
When she reached....we went down to fetch her up...and we had our dinner...and a short chat chat....
After that,Eileen suggested to go K-box...
we went to Hougang Plaza K-box....Jeslyn left at 11+pm but mi and eileen left at 12.50am...LoLx...now i m having sore throat liao...:(
After that,she suggested we walked back to her place..there then i took a cab home...who knows?we stayed at her downstair void deck to chat till almost 3am...
She told mi about her past r/s....her teensage life...omg...
she is so cheerful....to everyone...
now then i felt that...she is reali a strong and mature woman...
It is reali hard for her....

I always tot that i m always the unlucky one...the most cham one...who knows?in this world...there is others who is most cham...most unlucky than mi....

Leave with NO regrets...
Never blame others or yourself for the mistake u made...cos AFTER ALL...it is ur decision...no point,blaming everyone or anyone...cos the choiCE is urS....no one can forced u.....

2005-10-28T14:31:00.000+08:00

had u ever though tat..out of sudden...when u r attached...but ur parent wants u to marry someone....?
WHAT WILL U DO?

u got ur own loved one already?but ur parent wants u to marry someone u had nv seen b4 or loved at all?

I think it will be worst if u are being forced to marry another man who u hated the most....and ur parent separated u and ur boyfriend...
isn't that sad...?

2005-10-27T09:39:00.000+08:00

Realli f***king swayed.....

One stupid ex-classmate of mine....from informatics......he had been sending mi a lot of disgusting smses to my old hp no.......who knows...?my "him" saw it....he was so angry.....
reali pissed off...
even though,he didnt quarrelled with mi...but i still feel angry

more things turned out to be worst now....
things i chose to forgot....but being brought up again....
hai....
disappointing....
so confusing....this say that...that say this...?who to believe?who to listen to?
NO ONE?

2005-10-25T09:57:00.000+08:00

it's a tuesdae todae...yesterdae was busy....
hai....
KL Trip confirm gg...but still haben booked yet...
so excited...
hope the day faster faster cum....
reali need a SHORT SHORT holidae....too much stress at work....

HaPPy eBoN

2005-10-21T08:54:00.000+08:00

hmm...had mine makeover done....
reached about 6.35pm.....finished about 8plus....
I m reali nervous...my first time....
Hope the pic turns out nice....
I can only view my pic on 04-nOv.......
so long.......hehe...nvm....cos the photographer kept on asking mi to take digital...100 more bucks....but can edit...and view straight away...but too ex..

1 make up..of ur choice...
2 outfits....
16 shots...
accessories for u to match ur dressing.....

Luckily....i did take a lot of pics with my HP...hAhA...

I was given 4 pcs of passport size....
iT doesnt look nice to mi le...but Kaypo....and my beebee...said look nice...

hai...well well...past is past...if not nice oso no choice la...cannot retake oso...the most..take again next month lor...
LoLx.....

they had some promotions for friends/couples/birthdae....
hmm...hope to take with SGERs...and my beebee soon...how about Next month?hehe..

2005-10-20T10:23:00.000+08:00

it's a thursdae again....
Todae i m gg for makeover session...hope that it will turn out nice...cos i reali dunno how to :) in front of a camera....

If...One dae...your dear told you that...your best friend had been calling and dating him/her out...?will u believe ur dear?

I believe that in a r/s..a lot of us will simply believe everything and anything what our dear say...
but How many of us.....will reali go and find out whether things that he/she said is true a not?
i know that there should be always a TRUST in a r/s....
but sometimes we might be blindly in luv till every single word from ur dear.....said...u believe him/her....

Sometimes...u had nv though of ur friends' feeling...if they found out that you chose to believe ur dear more than them.....when everything seems to be a misunderstanding.....

This incident did happened to mi...i were terribly upset over it...i chose to believe my best friend at first...but after his explaination...which makes sense also....i chose to be caLm enough to settle it properly....tEll myself...to gif my dear a chance....to change if he is reali in the wrong....
Hope this dun happened again....Neither did i chose not be believe my best friend....Jus thank her for telling mi...If what she said is true then i think i should learnt my lesson....

2005-10-18T10:08:00.000+08:00

I m not happy...
Why is it tat those things u want..u cannot get it?those stupid things that u actuali dun reali need it...always cum to u?

I jus need a hole to hide....a place to be alone....

i dun wan to be disturb!!!

life sucks...

Hate everything....

Had been surfing net the whole morning instead of working..cos no mood...dunno what to do...dunno how to do?I had a stupid manager who only know how to ask mi do things that i dunno how to start to do?
Hate my present job...need a breaK...need a short holidae....

gg for makeover this week.....but my face is swollen..eyes pain..hw?still wanna to go?dunno...no mood oso..

??????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????

just finished listenting to my favourite programme from 93.3fm....
a 16 yrs old girl....falling in luv with a guy who is 10yrs older than her...he is reali a nice guy to her....she dun even knew that he is married....
he always brings her out with his friends&siblings..no one had even mentioned that he is married....there were once..his mum was admitted to the hospital..he even brought her to visit his mum....She can see that his mum reali likes her a lot..but only...she sighed....and said to herself:"hai!ke xi!ke xi!!"
That at time....she dun even noe what happened....she tot his mum was jus sighing for their age gap difference...
The most hurting things is that...they usually meet at his neighbourhood coffeeshop....for their meals.....
one evening,as usual....she meet him and one of his friends...for dinner...out of sudden,a woman walked to them with a baby in her hand...sat besides her...to be friendly..she smiled at her.....thinking that she might be her bf's buddy wife....but she gif her a kind of "bad attitude" glance....
the next moment...she saw her bf walking towards them...feeling so happy...she wanted to walk to him and gif him a hug...who knows?she heard the woman said to the baby that..."hey!baby...see dad's here!"she was alarmed...!!
she stood up and ran off....he goes after her...and he explained....
he is reali deeply in luv with her...everyone is his family likes her including his friends....he dun mean to lie to her....
Who knows...next?
his wife called to her place and told her parents about their R/S....
her parents were sad....but they didnt blamed the guy nor their daughter...she promised to end the r/s..with him....cos she dun wan to be a third party...
but one day...as she was standing next to her window....she saw a very familiar shadow....it;s him!!!she was happy...w/o anymore considerations...including...forgetting her promise to her parents...she ran down to him...and cried at his shoulder....
They continued the r/s..till her 21st birthdae....she finally made up her mind....she wanted to end this r/s once for all...she left for Hongkong...alone....
She didnt returned to visit her parents...even once...she doesnt wan to come bk to this sad place till todae....she is back to settle some personal stuffs..and will be back to HK soon...

What a sad song?is it as sad as "staircase to the heaven"?or fullhouse?

2005-10-17T09:16:00.000+08:00

hmm...had a simple weekend...nv go where on sat nite...continued watching VCD till sundae...
i m turning myself mad mad....
lolz..

It's a new start of the week....Nov approaching..i wan to go on a short getaway....No one acc mi!!!!

makeover-haben go and take....

maybe this week la...

2005-10-11T09:40:00.000+08:00

Had a tiring weekend...went to Hanwei BB on Sat...b4 that meet Ling & Judi @ Seletar Dam....then went for his BB then back to seletar dam again...and left there about 3+am...so i spent my sundae...resting at home...but still feel tired...

Yesterdae,meet Ying for supper at Geylang Lorong 3..GuEss what we ate?Frog Leg Porridge..!!It had been months since i ate that...or maybe one yr...nv eat already ba....then Chong cum with Zhurut,Ian and one of their friends to meet us there.....but we had finished ours already...so we stayed awhile and talked to them till 12+...while they still eating ...then we headed home...cos i m too tired liao....

Received a callf rom Andy yesterdae afternoon...he said a lot of strange things to mi...which really makes mi puzzled...well...maybe he is reali tired already...after continous of 2months working everydae..without a break....

*hope that everything will be fine after this Sat...*

*God!Bless mi!!*

2005-10-06T13:09:00.000+08:00

I hAD dOne The TesT (http://www.quizbox.com/personality/test82.aspx) which ling had done...i dun think it is true about mi...cos... first..i dun like to study...second...i m not straightforwardness attactive....
LoLx...oR mAYBE I m not serious enough while doing the survey??

Get to know yourself better
Your view on yourself:You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward. You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:You like serious, smart and determined people. You don't judge a book by its cover, so good-looking people aren't necessarily your style. This makes you an attractive person in many people's eyes.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:You prefer to get to know a person very well before deciding whether you will commit to the relationship.

The seriousness of your love:Your have very sensible tactics when approaching the opposite sex. In many ways people find your straightforwardness attractive, so you will find yourself with plenty of dates.

Your views on educationEducation is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.

The right job for you:You have many goals and want to achieve as much as you can. The jobs you enjoy are those that let you burn off your considerable excess energy.

How do you view success:Success in your career is not the most important thing in life. You are content with what you have and think that being with someone you love is more than spending all of your precious time just working.

What are you most afraid of:You are afraid of having no one to rely on in times of trouble. You don't ever want to be unable to take care of yourself. Independence is important to you.

Who is your true self:You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.

2005-10-05T10:39:00.000+08:00

haiz...
nightmares!!
Stubborn...always makes pple ended up no where....

As for mi...i m always beri beri stubborn...i had nv learnt my lessons...
History had been repeated the three times already....

2005-10-04T09:03:00.000+08:00

had been giving people attitude & losting my temper easily recently...i dunno y....
Dunno y i had been shouting at people...for nothing...i oso dunno y i got so worked up over what?no mood...no appetite...
haiz....

2005-09-30T10:47:00.000+08:00

hmm...i got a QUESTION...

y do pple only write about good things that happened to them & their loved ones?i seldom see pple writing out sad things & bad things about their loved ones....Maybe they only wanted to remember their happiness & happy things....or maybe they jus wan to let pple know that they are happy...always happy.....
As if in this world....only they are the happiest!!!everydaY....is happiness.....to them...they only had happiness in them...YA...SO what if it is?dun be proud?

In friendster...i read a lot a lot of pple writing their friendster blog...about the things that happened to them....

THEN TELL MI...?
What is the difference in RICH & POOR?
What is the difference in UGLY&PRETTY?
What is the difference in SINGLE & ATTACHED?
What is the difference in MARRIED & NOT MARRIED?

2005-09-29T09:51:00.000+08:00

hadnt been updating my blog for this few days...
terribly sick and tired in my heart...
hai~~

Broke broke le...
Pay cuming out soon le..hengz ah!!!

"he" kept in asking mi...where should we go this sat?where u wan to go?i will always reply him:ah ya..when Sat cum alreadi then say la!!!
but actually...i dun feel like meeting him....
i doesnt wan to hurt him...cos i m reali beri vexed....

Another reason:

i also dun wan to spend too much of his $$$ ...he reali worked beri beri hard to earn his own money...but..he always think that he should earn all his money... for mi to spend...
maybe i reali need to have a nice talk with him....

2005-09-26T14:54:00.000+08:00

haiz...
had been feeling irritated easily..this few days..dunno...
a lot of things happened to mi....
hope god will bless mi!!

Realli feeling uncomfortable everyday....

Had a simple weekend...

Went to town with my sister & him on Sat..then meet Ying,wm,ling,jody,kelvin,Jac jac & him for dinner at Marina South..then headed to Esplanade to slack till 12++...then went home..cos i m beri tired....

Met him yesterdae to continue watching our "wo he jiang shi you ge yue hui III"...hOPE to finish soon...cos i had lent from Kelvin for almost a year le..still havent finished watching yet..cos i m busy!!!! LoLx!

Heard that Zhurut is admitted into the hospital for Dengue Fever....omG..yING Say tat he looks Pale...OMg...so so so poor thing!
friends...pls take care of urself too!!!!

2005-09-21T10:00:00.000+08:00

It is a Wed again...
Tonite got Yoga In office & boxercise after that....
hmm...thanks to Ling for her help to change my blog layout.....
i like it a lot!!!
Yesterdae was Kelvin's Birthdae...but i din turned up for their Ktv session...cos i m too tired...
hOpe that they had enjoyed themselves...
My stupid hp had been giving mi problems again and again!!!feels like changing to another phone again....
but no $$$...this month broke agaIN....
hENGz...still got one more week...pay cuming out!!!!

Realli need a break too also...

i wan holidae!!!!

2005-09-19T08:46:00.000+08:00

Had a NICE weekend....
hmm...first...Thur:went for Hot Yoga with YiNG...ling le?she is too tired....
Fri... : went to meet him and headed for home at 11pm...
Sat:meet him after work at Bugis....then went back to my grandma place for BBQ cos we are having our "Zhong Qiu Jie celebration....then went movie with my cousins &him....11 of us....LoLx....then after the show,my cousins went for supper at Jalan Kayu....but i m tired of the foods there alreadi...so?mi and him went elsewhere.....
nOW still feeling happy....oN sAT...i Had bought 3 pairs of shoes,1 jean,1 3/4 pant,1 skirt,1 hair styling cream,1 nail polish etc...(too many till i cannot remember)...mY Two SISters were shocked when they saw mi bringing so many things back from bUGis.....
But i nv pAid for it!!!hengz!!
I m not bad ...ok?he wanted to buy for mi...i nv insisted him to get mi anything....
happi happi..I finally got the pair of sandal...i want!!!!!
i reali felt happy on Saturdae..it had been a long long time since....my grandma house had BBQ...we usually had only buffet cooked by my mum on other celebrations.....i remember the last BBQ we had....were about 4-6yrs ago?haha....there was also b4 my grandma place renovated...alot a lot of fun....children playing ...running around....adults talking among themselves.....two workers my aunt bought from our site were BBQing for us...with buffet only...COOlzzz!!
wHat if...a lot a lot of ifs....ifs came across my mind....
iF...i would have to be calm enough to settle every problems with him 6 months plus ago?
if...i had study hard enough for my "0" LEVEL...i would had been like Ying/Ling/Ger....
IF...
if....
If....

Hope tat there is answers to My IFs......

Lastly...if my *him* did see this entry..., i wan to tell him...thanks for everything he had done and gave to mi.... i m sorrie for what i had done for the past!

2005-09-13T12:26:00.000+08:00

supposed to meet LING & ying they all to CHinese garden on last thursdae
... but i didnt go...cos i got a date with my friend....for dinner....& then went to meet *toot*toot*..
fridae...i was at home...i think so...forgotten le
sat went to Veron BB at Aranda Country Club...and headed for movie after tat....
Sundae...i acc my sis & mummy to FAr East,,and then went home at 4plus...and i had steamboat for dinner..at home......

2005-09-08T09:10:00.000+08:00

Raining this morning when i woke up....
OMg...wet wet de floor....
tonite if we still wanna go CHinese gARden then how?so wet...
just now when i were on my way to work...i saw this man....maybe in his thirties?
he was sheltering his wife/gf to the other side of the road....he is reali so caring he shelter all the way....without noticed that he actuali got drenched...but the gf/wife...was not even wet lor...the jean was oso dry lor....he was protecting her like a princess...the way he helps her shelter... *sweet* sweet*
this singapore got how many guys will actuali do this?yes..maybe the honeymoon period...or after 1st few yrs of the relationship lor...well...well..better dun comments toO much!!!!!
Later...the two char bors gg to roar at mi....
*1123jdvnkma,b;.;a]n;[p[sjlpk*

2005-09-07T09:32:00.000+08:00

Yesterdae...rush home after work...bathe & bring dinner for Mark to my sister & we went shop shop with my sister & my *xx* *xx*...bought facial wash stuffs from MissHa...apent about 60+ there and shopped around...and went for dinner with them...
HAPPY ..Hapi!!
then headed to fetch Kelvin TO MEET juDI,lING,YinG,WM &jAC jAC...TO sELEtar dAM...
We again ate ice-cream there...
ling even helped mi to paint my nails there..OMG!LoLx..ya..we are reali crazy...!!
then headed for home at 12+am...

Nowadays...i m reali so lazy to update my blog for programmes for my weekend... it seems to be a repeated story with ying & ling bloggie.... but i reali enjoyed myself with all my friends during the weekend....

HaTE to write my hatred & sadness here...i prefer to hide it inside my heart...

anyway... Happy 21st Birthdae to Ms cHEW siLing MelAnie...

Here are my fav pics for her birthdae celebration on Sat...

HapPY...SGErs

Sweet Ling & SGers & cHuBby mei Mei

MI & LiNG

Not forgetting ...our Ms KayPo 's bIRTHdae On SuNdae:

2005-09-03T08:44:00.000+08:00

so many days nv updated my bloggie liao le...
Guess...guess no one misses mi......
LOL
Let..talk about Thursdae....
Super star fInal

My mother le?she is like a young girl....
calling everyone or anyone she noe...telling them about Kelvin(Wei Lian)
She dun think tat he will win...
cos i reali admitted tat nite...he reali dun performed well...even though...i reali supported him...so do my papa...daddy...
But only mummy supported Kelly...LoL...
mUMmY & pAPA...EVEN bEts...
MuMmY BeTs kELLy will win....PaPA?bEt KelViN WILL win....
Ended up?My mUMmY oWe PApa 100bucks....

YeStERdaE...Rushed home after work...faster bathes....then wanted to head off to ArandA c.C to attend Ah Ni...Lim ShI nI...birthdae....party....who knows?last min...ah ni mummy called & asked my mummy to cook more bee hoon for her...NOt enOUGh....LoL...but i started the engine of the car liao...waiting downstair liao...Nvm...i went to Hougang Point & SeRANGOON TO find SunFlOwEr for Ah Ni...but all the shops closed?OMG....Florist...closing so earli..ened up?i only got her a nice photo frame only....LoL....
iMAGIne...a photo frame & a sunflower...the feeling will be great!!!!!!
but...i reali cannot find...so sad...nvm!!!

ToDAe le?i reali got to rush home to buy something..then rushed home to bath and get changed & meet Ms ShOOing...to attend Our Missy ChEw Si lINg birTHdAE pARtY!!!
hOPE TO HAD MORE fuNs...Heard TAT maybe no cluBBing tonite...:(
eBoN Bu kaI xIn!!!!
nvm la...i got 2nd planning if they dun wan to go...i go myself with My anothEr Bestie....buddy!!!

2005-08-30T09:23:00.000+08:00

Oh..Jody is sick...my dear..ling..heart reali pain...
if i happened to mi...i think i will cry...when u see him in hospital..

*take care* *take care*

looking through...my friendster list....suddenly realised tat all of my friends had reali grown up...no longer those ah bengz ah lianx stuffs.....

Especially all my best friends.....all of us are turning into 21....(1/2 of them alreadi 21)...

As time passes....we are gg to get marry.... then....we are gg to be parents of our kids...omg!!

Realli misses those olden days....with fun and happy memories...!

When we r a kid...we wan to be an adult....
but when u had grown up...u rather be a kid... a little kid with no worries...no troubles...

haiz...

2005-08-29T08:30:00.000+08:00

hmm...i dun think tat...i should mentioned about the birthdae celebrations for Jody & My sister's...Linda here anymore...cos Ms SHOOing & Mel had actuali mentioned in their blog....

Ying:I m sorrie tat i pulled ur hand...cos i jus wanna find out what happened cos it is too noisy inside & i reali wan to tell tat bastard tat ya..i m the one who made the mistakes..what he knows...

Ling:LoL...jAs's dear..he is trying to stop the misunderstanding by saying u gers were drunk....But u gers weren't!!!

Yesterdae morning woke up at 10+am.... & slept at 5+am on Sat...and woke up to call him to wake up at 6+am....7+am to make sure he reali woke up for work..... omg...i dunno y i cannot sleep....
Went for dinner with him,Linda & kat...@ Buckaroo...i think this is the name of the restuarant....
it is a nice place...all the food tat...are in huge serving......and some of the food there are special....eg... the chicken wings....pizza....etc....With all the jokes,laughters & suaning each other....we actualli enjoyed ourselves....
Reached home about 11pm...

i reali hope to be like ling...
To had a secret blog...where no one knows...no one will comments....a place to hide my sadness....my hatred....my fears....

It is hard to express my feelings & sadness inside....

Humans are reali weird...even though,you knows tat things wont turned out good....they still wanted to step in....
Each time...they wan to gif up.... but...at last...they didnt.....
Y?humans dun understand themselves well? they dunno what they wan?

*Hurts*

2005-08-27T08:33:00.000+08:00

Went for Jody's bdae yesterdae nite...it is quite an enjoyable one...but somehow some stupid things happened....haiz`

tonite is my own sister...LIndA'S....hOPE EVERYTHING WILL turn out happy for mi...

Reali happy to had my best friends who are out there..always helping mi along......

2005-08-21T22:17:00.000+08:00

Just cum bk from my cousin.."nana" birthdae....had a reali relax weekend....nv actuali go out yesterdae cos of my cough....
Stay at home...last nite...slept quite early cos i m coughing non stop....
went to see a doc tis afternoon liao...,my vocal cord swollen..
Woke at 10+am this morning...and went market with my mum...if had been months since i went market with my mum..cos almost every sat went out till late late with my friends....
Tomolow is a new start of a new week....hope everything will be alrite....
Jody's Linda's & his birthdae approaching....presents?still haben get any yet....
got to get it soon...
but no $$ liao...pay still haben out...omg!saded!

2005-08-19T09:30:00.000+08:00

it's a fridae...
went over to ling place to learn how to cook spergettic.....(wrong spelling)from ling...turn out?not bad la..but...
due to my impatience....i poured in 3/4 of the tomato sauce in....instead of 1/2..OMG..so i turned out to be beri salty..but nvm...it is the beginning....
Realli sick...couging non stop...throat pain.....my voice le?a bit weird weird....
Just tok to him...now then i realised tat i m in the wrong...i always tot that he always take mi for granted....always know mi to meet him...till todae...
then i knew tat he had been carrying... a big big burden...he got to pay a lot of bills...including his car instalment...and petrol etc...
poor thing!haiz!
well...too bad..i caNNOT help!!

I think our date tomolow and Sun is OFF again!he is broke!!NVM!i can rest at home...

2005-08-18T08:51:00.000+08:00

After reading..ying's blog...yesterdae...she differentiate...between Crush,Like,Love&Admire...
And how would u differentiate?who is the one u admire?love?like or even had a crush on?

tOdae..feeling so sick...having sore throat,cough & la tu zi...for the whole nite....so sleepy...!:(

I need to exercise... but i can't..
tonite there is a badminton session with my colleagues....but i m too sick to go...
Weekend cuming...so happy....
Next week...is jody & my mei mei & andy bdae celebration... 26-27-28...Fri-Sat-Sun...OmG!
$$$$....I neeed more $$$$

Sept?
02/09-04/09...&10/09

02 SEpt-Aranda-Shi Ni
03/09- Singtel Recreation Club-LiNg
04-Sept-*SAME AS ABOVE* -aH GER
10/09- aRAnda-Veron
my didi wan...oso in Sept le.... OOOoooPppSS...
Every year....July to Sept...i m beri poor wan....!haha!

anyway...hope every birthdae boi & gers will enjoy themselves on their birthdae!!!

2005-08-16T10:45:00.000+08:00

ling and ger always tell mi ...to wait for luv to find mi..dun go and find love.....!
Ya...the more you wants..the more u cannot get it...
the more u dun wan...the more u will get it..!
sick sick sick...sick and tired all the nonsenses.....
now the song tat is playing in my blog reali suits my feeling....
hE jus need mi to tok to him...he doesnt wan a stead...cos he only love his car....
i suppose....No one will replaced his car in his heart...!
y m i be stubborn le?give up!!
Received sms from "xb"...
he say he cannot forgot mi...he wants mi bk...but...i knew everything is a history...a lesson tat i had learnt....
there is no way to turn back...i believed he is like mi...he jus need someone....to fill the gap in his heart..but he hadnt found one....so he tot tat he cannot forget mi...but i had forgot him totally...
Jus sent him a sms to let him know how i feels..it might be a bit harsh...but reali got to let him noe tat...
past is always past!
*gonez mean gonez*

No more in love....
no more would i love someone deeply...till he does it first!!!

2005-08-15T20:17:00.000+08:00

Had a relax day.....todae...
Just meet him....LoL
He cum to wash his car...and we had dinner together at Serangoon Garden....
Yesterdae went to attend cabbie's bdae....had a stress and tiring nite..reached home about 4am..omg...and nv go to work todae..cos a bit tired lor....He was drunk....but he say he didnt cos....he reali remembered everything tat happened when he is drunk...even what i said to my friends...etc...
Luckily,he could wake up in the morning...or else....???
Finally took a pic with him after Qi nagging towards him...dunno whether is it nice...cos she used Emi's digital camera to take it...*excited*
His birthdae also cumming....dunno wanna to attend a not?cos a bit pai sei....with his friends..and my friends le?i dun think they wan to go la...some even tat he is a beng lor...dun like him lor...haiz...nvm la...and my friends also dun noe him well....see how see how....!!anyway..my sistar will be celebrating her bdae at Devils next Sat lor...hope tat he is gg lor... :P

*pic pic pic..faster send mi all the pic lor!!!!*

2005-08-13T08:45:00.000+08:00

good morning....cum good nite lor...i had not been sleeping since last nite lor....
i went devils with Qi,Ni,qI dEAR...,his friends..Libing,Linda..Eileen...
OMG..!Thanks to Li bing for introducing her friend.Jeff to mi lor...All of them left at 3am...Libing left at 4+am..
mi and eileen went into Devils to drink again with Jeff...who knows?i met my 5yrs best friends..there also...so happy...
Then?ended up?we went to Mac for breakfast at six..i reached home at 7...i only slept for 30mins then cum to work lor....:(
i nv even had the time to bath lor..i m reali smelly now lor....i reali needs to zzz now...cannot stand it anymore...
Later muz faster rush home to zzz and then wake up in the late afternoon to prepare myself to attend Ben bDae @ Aranda C.C lor...haiz...

Todae Devils again?NO!no thanks...!i think i rather stay at home to zz lor..

2005-08-12T08:51:00.000+08:00

weekend...again..so fast...this week...reali tiring....:(
Tomolow...got a birthdae party to attend..and swimming session with ling they all..i dun think i m gg...cos i m too tired...

Sundae..it's Cabbie's b'dae..omg!!sun le...Mondae..still got to work le...

haiZ...

i wan to be slimmer...i m beri beri fat liao..y can't i lost more weight?
sianzz...

2005-08-10T08:44:00.000+08:00

had a tiring holidae....
Meet up with Ling,Jody,Ying and wm....on monday nite..oh no...i should say is tuesdae..earli morning...12am....LoL...
at first..we wanted to watch movie..then we cancelled the planning again...then ended up?we finally decided to watch liao...it's already 9+pm..it was too late...we cannot find anymore seats online...But ying still insisted tat she muz got tix online...cos all of us reali wanted to watch "the maid"....so at 11.45pm....ying rushed dowm with wm...to get tix from bugis cineplex....
luckily tat there are 5seats...lol...
Ling & Jody....cum and picked mi up at 12am...omg...by then i m already wearing my sleeping dress....i already zzz liao...luckily...that andy called mi twice.....then it reali woke mi up...and i found 6 miss calls...including marcus...ying...jody and andy...
OMG...reali hengz lor...or else..ling and ying gg to roar at mi again lor....
After the movie....the two girls insisted i should ask andy to join us for supper..so i called him lor...who knows...i m reali so hengz lor...he say okie...
He cum to meet us with a guy friend..named..dunno eddie?andy?or duno what ddie la...hehe..
Even though..thru out the nite..both of them kept on "suaning" lor...but...i still feel happy...cos?:P
Yesterdae went to bugis again..when ying lor....haiz..we meet quite late lor..plus..she was late lor..we had bought a present for...cabbie alreadi...a perfect present...a monkey...LoL...& I also bought a shirt for ben...Mark's bro..his birthdae celebration this sat...@ Aranda C.C..with Xiaxue..attending....i reali heard a lot about him lor...yesh!the"best" blogger in SINGAPORE lor...i muz go and see how she look like....
This sundae le?Cabbie wan..omg...this month..broke again lor...so many birthdae...

haiZ...time to change my stupid and sensitive attitude liao lor....
nearly lost a friend over this....y muz i always feel sensitive over small things?in friendships,in love,in family members...at work...
y alwayz like tat le?haiz...
hate myself...at the age of 21..then found out and wanted to change...

the more..i try..the more..i failed....

:(

2005-08-08T09:11:00.000+08:00

hmm...had a nice weekend...tomolow is a holidae again...~happy~but if i can go away from a few days...iwill be more happy...LOL

wEnt to devils on Sat nite...there le.??no longer like last time so nice ans packed liao le..but i still enjoyed myself there with my cousins....we took a lot of pic...like mad girls...
Especially mi...cos i had heritted ling's hobby liao...she loves taking pic of herself..OoopPpsSs..she is gg to roar at mi again....

2005-08-06T08:20:00.000+08:00

After reading Ling's blog...i really feel that....so envious of her....:(
Jody reali luv and treasure a lot...She got flowers...at night...when she wish to get from him...but she din mentioned anything to him....is it "xin you lin xi" ma?hmm..i dun think i ever had this kind of happy feeling anymore....
Wishing to see him today..but i supposed..he had forgot mi....now..he is recovering...Weekend...for him is to go racing.....meet his friends to go out ba...or he rather go to his car garage then to meet mi ba...

He only forget out dates...
hai....we are suppose to catch a movie with my friends...but he din mentioned anything...
we are supposed to meet yesterdae nite...he again..nv even say anything....
hai~!!i alreadi tell mi to gif him up already..y m i still thinking so much?is it just a crush?or m i reali in luv with him?

I jUst hope tat he can either fetch mi HOME or maybe we csn meet for a dinner or lunch...i reali dun mind..if i got to go to anywhere myself...even if he cannot fetch mi...but i know all are my own thinking....

Maybe after 4+yrs sticking with the same guy..and i fell at last...i m terribly terrified...i reali dunno how to xpress my own feelings to any guys anymore....

You all might think i m reali too desperate...but i m not lor...Jus...it's jus tat i dunno y i will always think of him...and miss him....

Sian sian sian....hate this kind of feeling....

I WANT TO GO CLUB!!!NO NO FRIENDS WANNA JOIN MI....!!ONLY MY COUSIN & SISTER...nvm..i need a break..tonite..i shall go with them....!!!

2005-08-05T21:42:00.000+08:00

i m rotting...rotting soon...hmm...staying at home todae..straight after i cum bk form work..not gg out...so boring...all my siblings..not at home...
it's a Saturdae...tomolow...
feeling like gg to Devils...tomolow nite le...but dunno wan a not le..ying they all sure dun wan to go wan...maybe jio other ple la....

waiting for u..waiting for u...waiting for u to kiss mi at the nite...
missing u....missing u..i m missing u....Realli miss u deep deep....!

2005-08-03T08:28:00.000+08:00

Yesterdae i was on MC....wOKe up at 11+..so..i went online...hmm...talked to Kaypo and Ling till 1++pm..and went to see a doc at 2pm and meet ling at my a bus stop before my house...we went to Bishan...to shop..she bought a lot of things from FOX...50%sale le...hehe...she wanted to get herself a key pendant...and a diamond...necklace....cos her daddy gif her a lot of $$$ to get herself a present...as he strike 4D....

Everything was ok..till 8++pm..i received a shocking sms...which makes.... reali reali sad...iy was like my heart paused for a min.....

i reali feel like crying..but i didnt...i nv expected..he will reply mi...like tat..ijus sms him to explain y i hang up the call..cos my hp battery was low...it auto shut off...

My heart reali broken.....he reali spoilt my mood at that moment....

But..Yesterdae straight after i reached home at 12++ i had go online to block him in MSN....cancelled his from my friendster...

wHEn i switched on my hp..he left mi a voicemail ....and i knew tat he had called mi a lot of times...yesterdae... and a sms.... at 1+am.... asking mi y havent reached home....but usually he sleep....at this time...LoL...

hmmm....now feeling ok....dunno whether i will forgif him one day a not...but i jus hate pple who are rude to mi....when i m trying to be nice to them lor....

2005-08-01T09:02:00.000+08:00

What if one day...u found out tat the guy u liked....falls in lub with ur best friend?hmm...seems familiar huh?i m not talking about u girls.....

sad rite?u asked him...he denied....cos he doesnt wan to hurt u...as he noe tat u r in lub with him....

Sometimes...u rather...u dunno than u noe tat he actualli like ur best friend....

Just hope tat this thing wont happened to mi...cos i will hate myself....instead of the guy or my best friend....

Suddenly...i had this fear in mi...i m beri scared...this wont happened to mi....

I hate tis fear... cos i reali cannot take it...

-GOd..if u wan to hurt mi...pls dun let him fall in lub with my best friend...but someone else..whom i dunno... -

2005-07-31T03:14:00.000+08:00

Just cum bk from fisherman village after meeting Ling,Jody,Bazid,Lisa,mItsU,amY,Ying,wm and desmond.....
Just now i was sleeping when they called....i was damn tired lor ..but
now?i m feeling freshed...

Went to test drive a few cars when my sister,Mark,James and him...
he cum to pick mi up after work...
but he still left us at 3++ and went to his garage...to find his friends...ended up called mi a few times to ask mi to let him know the time i meeting ling they all...ended up?we nv meet...cos?he stayed too far...
I was like..kind of hungry to death lor...continually....two days lor...i nv eat my dinner....jus wanna wait till he finished his things..then we went to eat together..ended up?we didnt meet...

Yesterdae was bcos of his hand bleed...so i faster ask him to go home....
todae le?We cannot decide where to go...ended up?when we decided to go Fisherman village..he dun wan to go..cos he stayed too far....
i dunno why lor...i told him tat we meet some other days..since we met tis afternoon....but he insisted..he wants to see my friends...
hai..anyway...i m not sad nor angry..jus a bit tired...i m reali trying my best to understand him as a friend..but i reali couldnt...cos...he is too "strange" for mi to understand....

Whether to continue our friendship...or close relationship...?i had no idea...cos we dun reali understand each other much lor...

Who knows...maybe one day...i had someone whom i liked..i will forgot him totally....

Whether worth it a not?i oso dunno lor...

2005-07-29T08:53:00.000+08:00

still feeling a bit drunk drunk feeling...OMG...!Where got pple go ktv oso drunk wan?Got ebon lor...hehe...as if my birthdae like that..yesterdae went to Parkway..K-box to sing....then drink quite a lot with Ian..the best drinker in our group of guys lor.....hehe..dunno y.. dunno y drink so much?dun ask mi y?LoL..ya..i m mad...
One more thing....i m more mad...i took 1 month to lose 4Kg..but...after yesterdae..*gonez* :(
Try my best...!try my best!i wan to be fit fit!

OMG..Tonite maybe gg drinking again....y?for what?cos i promised someone.....
taken a lot of pic yesterdae..i shall upload it soon...

weekend cuming....yah!! Can relax liao le...hate working...i lub sleeping...

2005-07-28T08:40:00.000+08:00

Tired of loving someone....so what if he knows?He can say he oso like u..but he needs time...he feel that the time is not ripe....

Everything is ALL UP TO him.......

Made up my mind...from today onwards,jus treated him like a normal friend on mine....Dun expected mi to be always be your side..when u dun wan to treasure mi....

I will still answer his call...sometimes...if reali not free...i wont answer....
cos...u r no longer as important as my best friends ANYMORE....
i WONT BE PETTY enough to avoid ur call...cos i m mature!After all..u r also my sister's friend ...

Hmm..weekedn faster cum....i misses my bed....and i want a relaxing weekend.....not clubbing...no yoga...no coffee.... :)

2005-07-26T23:49:00.000+08:00

hmmm...jus got back from Carmen birthdae...hmm...uploaded all the pic taken there liao...hehehe.too bad none of them are online...
Missing him....but he zzz liao...too bad...

oh no..the pis is too big...so i cannot reali upload..
hmmp....maybe try again later....

got to zz liao...

2005-07-25T08:27:00.000+08:00

hmm...i had a busy and stressful weekend....Fridae...went to swimming....
Saturdae...went to meet linda & Eshane @ town..cos Eshane gg to attend...her friend R.O.M session,so she needs to get a last min dres..ended up?she only got a top with her 3/4 bottom...Lol
...then mi and linda...?waiting for our Yoga class to start....we went shop with her....
After our classes...both of us are tired already....but?i still forced myself and my sister to walk to Wheelock,nokia to repair my phone..who knows?again....they asked mi to change my sim card...

Headed home at 7+....again we gg to club la...
At 10+ i went out to meet Jody & ling in the MRT....cos we meeting Jac Jac & his friend,Leo @ Park Mall...so we alighted at Dhoby Ghaut Mrt station....coz...we are gg to take bus there....

We went to M.I.A....a so-called liverpool pub la...but it is reali quite boring there...maybe bcos it is still quite new....luckily,Jody knows how to make uself occupied....we played cards...with lots of nonsenses...and we took pic of urself in the pub oso...

I tink i spent most of my time...talking to him on the phone....he is reali boring at home...
imagining...all ur friends gg out...u got to stay at home...cos ur hand pain...?hai~~
After all...i reali enjoed myself a lot....

Yesterdae woke up at 8.30am....when i only spent at 3++am...OMG!!i dunno y?i reali cannot sleep lor...then went to my cousin's friend,Gerline....baby boy...full month celebration....he is so cutezz.....
then headed for hot yoga..at Amoy street....then headed to PS...to take a new sim....card...and shopped...who know?i spent my remaining $$$left again....now left?$0.....:(

Tonite Bollywood dance again...?:(
it's ok...i reali need to exercise...and lost weight.....!!!coz...??hehe....not to mention here...! :X

2005-07-23T09:41:00.000+08:00

i had a bad feeling....
Ling..you might think tat i think too much....
Now he is sick....maybe we can talk to each other...more...or see each other more....but maybe after he recovered,he can drive liao...he will totally forgot mi...he will go racing....or out with his friends....or i wont be able to hear from him for days..where as now?he called mi everydae...i got a lot of chances to talk to him...even though,most of my time...i m outside.....

I cannot be have a selfish though to hope that he wont recovered..cos after all...i jus wish that he can recovered soon...

He always gif a feeling that...he does cares...sometimes...he dun...sometimes...i reali dunno what is he thinking?y he reacted in a certain way?

i jus hope everything will turn out happy as i wish...

it's a Saturdae....friends...gg clubbing at MIA...a newly pub located @ MS....but broke liao....
hmmm...later after work...going to town & then yoga....

Yesterdae he did say to bring mi out...but...it seems he had forgotten or he jus entertained mi only la....well well...maybe he prefer to rest at home...

just hope that God blesses all my friends & him!

2005-07-22T09:30:00.000+08:00

Everything seems to happen to fast..hmm...waking up liao...maybe i m too sensitive....i believed that things do not had to been said clearly out from ur mouth..but....by actions..or u can beat around the bushes....but as long as u r a human..u should understand what u mean....

Feeling much relax.....

but still tired.....

2005-07-20T08:46:00.000+08:00

broke liao broke liao....

Spent my last 10 bucks yesterdae nite....meet Kat,Linda with ling @ Revzone.....Back home at 12+..almost 1am....tired..tired...

Went to visit him last nite at NUH...He is gg for his operation at 10pm...so rushed down there...and passed him hp charger...cos...his hp low batt le...

I can see tat he is really in pain....but he can still joke....with mi....LoL

Left there at 10.20pm....cos he is still waiting for his "turn" to go into the operation theatre....
Realli sound serious huh?But hope everything will be always soon la....

-Hope to hear from him ASAP coz he promised to call mi when he is awake...but till now?...-

nVm la...everything will be alrite!!!

2005-07-19T09:35:00.000+08:00

*feeLing sad*
Went to Sentosa with Ling,Ying,Wei MING,Jody,xb,Zhi Wei..and his gf,Gillian..we meet Jac,bAZID,mITSu...,his sis,Amy and their friend,,,there...
Ended up?we tot there is no sun...we actualli stayed the water for hours...ended up?all got sun curns NOW!!!mI LE?TILL todae...my face still look so red....

Yesterdae...Andy need my help...but i din...help him...i think he is angry with mi...i called him alot of times ...he nv ans any of my calls....
Went to meet Kat with my sister,Linda @ Cosy Bay....we are terribly sad...and Kat was actualli drunk.....She even drove home herself...She reali scared us....:)Luckily...she still can concentrate driving.....My car...le....following her behind...reali terrified lor....

*mIssiNG*tHINking*